30 November, 2010
Dread
14 November, 2010
Disturbance
23 October, 2010
Displaced - Azure Ray
I can still hear it all of the time
If i can just hold on tonight
I know that nothing
Nothing survives
Nothing survives
I think i'm turned around
I'm looking up
Not looking down
And when i'm standing still
Watching you run
Watching you fall
Fall into me
Am i making something worthwhile out of this place
Am i making something worthwhile out of this chase
I am displaced
I am displaced
And she's my friend of all friends
She's still here when everyone's gone
She doesn't have to say a thing
We'll just keep laughing all night long
All night long
Am i making something worthwhile out of this place
Am i making something worthwhile out of this chase
I am displaced
I am displaced
It's just a simple line
I can still hear it all of the time
If i can just hold on tonight
I know that no one
No one survives
No one survives.
20 October, 2010
Your Madness
20 September, 2010
Except Perhaps in Spring
08 September, 2010
18 August, 2010
09 August, 2010
Sowed Seeds
10 June, 2010
Watermelon Man
25 April, 2010
Over the Edge
13 April, 2010
Presence
01 April, 2010
Imbalanced Connections
20 March, 2010
Facticity
28 February, 2010
14 February, 2010
Memories of You
For You - Valentine's day Love Poem
Why is today special?
Everyday I see you,
I feel care
Care for your now and before and after
I feel longing
Longing for your care and caress
I feel pain
Pain that I break my heart everyday
I feel resignation
Resignation at never getting a chance.
All this I feel, everyday.
Why do I care?
Even though I know what you feel
Why do I care?
Despite knowing how it will be
I know even if you would give us a chance
It would be painful and tiring
Sadness and hurt
For me and
You
And yet here I am once again
On a gloomy sunday
Wanting to show you how I feel
Waiting for your sweet care
To lie in your arms
Even if it is just for a day, an hour, a minute.
And yet as I write and send this I know
Today I want to tell you about my love
I will not take anything or want anything
Tomorrow I will be your friend again
Today the sun will set again
Another day will have passed
With the shadows of the emotions it had cast
Tomorrow I will speak to you again
Just as a friend you will approach me
And I will gladly accept it for the best
Because I can only care for you
Only always understand.
The sun has set and with it
So has my longing
Why is today special?
02 February, 2010
Relationships
29 January, 2010
Growing
Adolescence
21 January, 2010
Understanding
19 January, 2010
Heart
15 January, 2010
04 January, 2010
The Trip - Dec 2009
- Slept in a fetal position in the 18 hour train journey from Toledo to Boston. But also sat in the cafe car for most of the time, looking out of the window.
- Met Alex in the cafe car where we talked about how he faces discrimination because of his dreadlocks even though he is white.
- Had a conversation about open spaces and common land in Australia with an old Australian couple, an environmental science student, and a physics student.
- Spilled a whole embarrassing cup of coffee on myself. Thermals saved me from getting a skin burn.
- Drove around Boston, walked through Harvard and saw some MIT buildings.
- Met a family comprising of a white man, woman from India, and two adopted girls from India.
- Sat through the most amazing drive between Boston and Burlington.
- Ate good food and drank red wine everywhere
- Sat through 3 christmas parties
- Met long lost cousins and uncles
- Rode the red line in Boston (metro)
- Made friends with Ace who I never touched. (the cat)
- Understood what it feels like to be told I drink wine too fast and that I drink win too slow.
- Did a lot of futile research for Philadelphia.
- Slept through new year at Baltimore
- Said nothing to anybody on the train back to Toledo