I read these lines in a book and they really helped me see myself truly. I like to think of 'smell' as a problem i find within myself.
"You dont smell. You have never smelt. It is just your
fear talking. Your fear that once more you will be
rejected. You want to think you smell because that way
you will be able to blame yourself. That way it will
become impossible for anyone to hurt you, because u
have already rejected yourself.
The smell is your only defence your revolt against
powerlessness. But it isn't real. It is no more real
than your defencelessness."